I’ve become such a mess. Allowing myself to fall for addictions I could have never imagine even starting to actually be addicted too. I don’t even know what any of these things are suppose to be making up for.

My body, mentally and physcially, has been breaking down so frequently lately, I can’t even keep up with my own problems. If my body has to experience any emotion behind the ones I allow myself, it completely shuts down, I go on autopilot, fully tune out, and become completely destructive.

The powder is my best friend, and the grass is my morning cigarette.

The fungus makes the party, and the superman cleans out my system.

I find someway to make this happen, working three jobs, everyday…….